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I'm pretty sure I have body dysmorphia of my face to a certain extent. I just see all my flaws and nothing else.
This torment comes and goes and right now it's here again. I hate it!
1 hour ago, 51WithSkin said:I'm pretty sure I have body dysmorphia of my face to a certain extent. I just see all my flaws and nothing else.
This torment comes and goes and right now it's here again. I hate it!
HEY bro or sis but don't worry i think everyone does to certain extent so your not alone ...... best of luck
Have you tried talking to a licensed therapist or doing e-counseling? I understand, I believe I have some issues with BDD that stem from OCD, and acne makes this issue so much worse. I think counseling could help you come to terms with these feelings. And if you aren't opposed, anti-anxiety medications can ease the symptoms of anxiety and BDD.
hi so im 18, female, and i was diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder this past summer. you can read my longer story in one of my other posts if you want, but long story short i was very outgoing and popular in high school never really had a problem and around junior year when i had to apply to colleges i started getting 2-3 pimples a month and since i cared a lot about how i looked i went to a dermatologist who said i should just take accutane to get rid of acne "forever"..i popped my first pill and never looked back clear skin and had the best senior year ever. i finished accutane about december of my senior year but had been completely pimple free since June. However, about six months after, the following june i started getting one to two pimples every few weeks and i started freaking out....there were times last summer i had only one pimple and i sold my concert tickets and sat inside my dark room until it went away, running to the bathroom every 30 seconds due to OCD to check on it....which is why my parents had me start cognitive behavioral therapy with a therapist who after working with me diagnosed me with BDD. so as part of my therapy "homework" I had to read a book called the Happiness Trap. I really recommend it..like really really. Also, it sounds bad but the book The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck was my second assignment and also very helpful. if you struggle i recommend atleast one if not both books. At the end of the summer, after reading these books I could no longer notice my 1-2 breakouts every few weeks because i saw them how everyone else did....they didn't. So i left for college started having an amazing time, joined a sorority, met so many great people and then slowly my skin started breaking out bad....worse than ever before. Well my therapy hadn't really covered what id do or how id be able to handle if my skin ever got that bad because I never could have imagined in 1000000 years that my skin would look like that. At this point i shut DOWN. i couldn't bear people seeing me with this many flaws because i wanted people to see me the way i was in high school, smiling and bright with clear skin.I wanted to have that same reputation in college. I stopped going to class, stopped attending sorority functions, stopped going out downtown and literally locked myself in my dorm...at this point i had to come home for a semester. My new derm said my first derm prescribed accutane incorrectly and this in turn made my acne worse in the long run and the only way to fix it was to go back on it for the right time and right dose. so my BDD and acne caused me to lose something i value so much, and something i enjoyed and loved. I had an amazing life and because of this disorder and acne i have missed out on so many things that the real me loves to do. I completely relate to only seeing your flaws. Accutane should have cleared my skin after 2 months according to my derm but even after five months on a high dose my face is still a mess and its literally all i think about, especially since I'm not in school right now. I still go to therapy but it is really difficult to curb the compulsive negative thoughts. People with nonviable problems can atleast hide it to the world, i can't really hide my gross face. I get so angry at everyone, at my doctors, at my parents, at myself...not because i should or want to, but because my anxiety and acne causes me to lash out because of so much built up anger, depression, and disappointment. like i said, i really recommend those two books, maybe if you have the time and money you could meet with a therapist of your own, but try to stay strong even when you feel awful and alone, there are thousands of people out there like me who are going through the same thing....we can all make it 
2 hours ago, cp11447 said:hi so im 18, female, and i was diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder this past summer. you can read my longer story in one of my other posts if you want, but long story short i was very outgoing and popular in high school never really had a problem and around junior year when i had to apply to colleges i started getting 2-3 pimples a month and since i cared a lot about how i looked i went to a dermatologist who said i should just take accutane to get rid of acne "forever"..i popped my first pill and never looked back clear skin and had the best senior year ever. i finished accutane about december of my senior year but had been completely pimple free since June. However, about six months after, the following june i started getting one to two pimples every few weeks and i started freaking out....there were times last summer i had only one pimple and i sold my concert tickets and sat inside my dark room until it went away, running to the bathroom every 30 seconds due to OCD to check on it....which is why my parents had me start cognitive behavioral therapy with a therapist who after working with me diagnosed me with BDD. so as part of my therapy "homework" I had to read a book called the Happiness Trap. I really recommend it..like really really. Also, it sounds bad but the book The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck was my second assignment and also very helpful. if you struggle i recommend atleast one if not both books. At the end of the summer, after reading these books I could no longer notice my 1-2 breakouts every few weeks because i saw them how everyone else did....they didn't. So i left for college started having an amazing time, joined a sorority, met so many great people and then slowly my skin started breaking out bad....worse than ever before. Well my therapy hadn't really covered what id do or how id be able to handle if my skin ever got that bad because I never could have imagined in 1000000 years that my skin would look like that. At this point i shut DOWN. i couldn't bear people seeing me with this many flaws because i wanted people to see me the way i was in high school, smiling and bright with clear skin.I wanted to have that same reputation in college. I stopped going to class, stopped attending sorority functions, stopped going out downtown and literally locked myself in my dorm...at this point i had to come home for a semester. My new derm said my first derm prescribed accutane incorrectly and this in turn made my acne worse in the long run and the only way to fix it was to go back on it for the right time and right dose. so my BDD and acne caused me to lose something i value so much, and something i enjoyed and loved. I had an amazing life and because of this disorder and acne i have missed out on so many things that the real me loves to do. I completely relate to only seeing your flaws. Accutane should have cleared my skin after 2 months according to my derm but even after five months on a high dose my face is still a mess and its literally all i think about, especially since I'm not in school right now. I still go to therapy but it is really difficult to curb the compulsive negative thoughts. People with nonviable problems can atleast hide it to the world, i can't really hide my gross face. I get so angry at everyone, at my doctors, at my parents, at myself...not because i should or want to, but because my anxiety and acne causes me to lash out because of so much built up anger, depression, and disappointment. like i said, i really recommend those two books, maybe if you have the time and money you could meet with a therapist of your own, but try to stay strong even when you feel awful and alone, there are thousands of people out there like me who are going through the same thing....we can all make it
Thank you for your courage and amazing story! Perhaps I will read on of the books you suggested.
2 hours ago, cloudydreamer said:Have you tried talking to a licensed therapist or doing e-counseling? I understand, I believe I have some issues with BDD that stem from OCD, and acne makes this issue so much worse. I think counseling could help you come to terms with these feelings. And if you aren't opposed, anti-anxiety medications can ease the symptoms of anxiety and BDD.
Thank you for your feedback. I have tried anti-anxiety medications years ago. Now I know a good night' sleep does the best for me. I am going to see my counselor this week. I will bring up my BDD feelings to him.
3 hours ago, KenHarrison said:5 hours ago, 51WithSkin said:I'm pretty sure I have body dysmorphia of my face to a certain extent. I just see all my flaws and nothing else.
This torment comes and goes and right now it's here again. I hate it!HEY bro or sis but don't worry i think everyone does to certain extent so your not alone ...... best of luck
Thank you very much man.
On Facebook I usually get "oh you look so good.. handsome... but not this time. Lol makes me wonder if they see my flaws. Pathetic, I know for a man in his 50s to admit this. lol
